Cant get leave..Work..

i hate this kind of feeling that think wanna go to enjoying mayb leave will approved..but in the end leave not approved..i have to "guai guai" go to work..dont even think to mc..sien lar..hopes tonight not so busy lor but if really not busy sure i blame why never give me leave..hai hai..but in my mind i think if can choose,i want she come back to myside rather than i get the leave..now i cant get my leave,hopes soonest she will come back to myside..work work..haiz..

FCL night..

a fuck up night..61 tt only..after meal break-1 still need to log off 4 tt..for sure that i wont hv the chance of at fucking FCl block..fuker control put me meal break-1..quite busy but nv put me workthrough..haiz..fuking a lots of shifting,somemore still need to gantry to help ppl..walan,divert all pm then gantry to help ppl,just do a few(3 or 4) then gantry back continue my yard mounting..pek chek..busy shifting until no time to rest..
6 something i gantry again..from W29 cross gantry to V27..i nv park my tt nicely then when wanna enter V27 ad very "sengit" but still can adjust back wont hit the biggest slot,row 6 container..but suddenly my tt cant gantry..a PM driver come down to see..d anticolition wayar problem..so i gantry back to the street to adjust back my tt..so i gantry enter to W27 since a lot PM waiting..when enter W27,my tt cant gantry again..this time for sure that my tt is in d line..so it wouldnt be the same problem like just now..try n try and the PM driver come down again to see,is nothing..then i received a private call,dunno from where(i thought control) asking me whats happend to my tt..i tell him,then he want me to report to control..control want me to call technicion and key machine breakdown(cannot gantry) at pc..(i still dunno who private call me)i call technicion,they want me to standby..around 10 minutes later,i try use anticolition bypass key..is suprise that the tt can gantry..so i call technicion to report them..but they still want me to standby..the time is nearly 0700..wanna go back home ad..hopes technicion come faster..then i received call from technicion say that want me to try gantry..is sucess to gantry without using anticolition bypass key..then i can carry on..i just do a mounting after the tt back to normal..then go home..this night shift very "suay"..at FCL block somemore a lots of yard mounting(need shifting),still need to gantry to help ppl..somemore tt down..walan..tired with all of this..hopes tonight not heavy,i can take leave to enjoy at WC birthday party..God Bless Me..

别人的天长地久

just woke up,out there is raining..i was fb+ing,found a song..别人的天长地久-梁静茹..
the lyrics is sad n i think quite fit to describe me..
你说的一天不够 不够你爱我 不够长不够久
你要的为爱而活 怎么忘了我
好羡慕你能拥有 别人的天长地久
moody again..

extended shift..suffering

today work morning shift (0700 to 1500),but extend until 1900..tired,busy..now sleepy n lower back pain..so sien wanna do yarn mounting cos mostly hv to shift..today i got a yard mounting nd to shift 4 container..walan,really pek chek since still hv crane mounting waiting 4 me..haiz..really tired,but luckly that tmr is 3rd shift..if still 1st sure i die ad..tmr needed to buy Black Label again..finish..i ad drink 1 wine,3 whiskey(Black Label) tis 1 month plus..still needed alcohol to help me in sleep..

hmm..strange..

just received a call..from "A",saying tat she heard rumor tat "S" couple v a guy.."A "doesnt like tat guy..she get in touch v tat guy,feel tat the guy is playing around scare S will been cheat by him.."A" also heard fr a friend saying tat the guy nt good..so she's telling me tat if i still got feel with "S",i must take action..if nt "S" will be tat guy's gal..cos "S" will easily get cheat in an relationshp..
i want declare tat "S" is a nice gal..we been couple b4..its end bcos of me..i felt sry to her cos i break her's heart,since she treat me very good..i been think b4 that to chase her back,but i dont hv tat kind of feel to her..if we couple again,i scare end up i'll hurt her again..(we nv contact to each other nearly a month)i think i should take care her nt to be cheated by anyone..i wont let other ppl bully her..i dont think this is call love..mayb it can be call as a brother taking care of sister..

i go and cut my hair..

today didnt do much container..just around 40+ but do a lot shifting..all is yard mounting..cover 2 block..gantry gantry..sien..
i received a call fr Kay Kun(logistic),need me to do entended shift tmr(0730 to 1930)just after i say yes,he hang up the call,i just realise that tmr (A.F.J.K) got meet up..is too late,so i hv to cancel meet up with (A.F.J.K).not because of me ot,they also needed to cancel cos kim got class,fang n her sis got ot..heng,if nt the next meet up 4 sure i kena shoot..
after hang up Kay Kun call i received anothe call dunno fr whr(i think also is fr logistic)saying tat want me to attend dialogue section..@!#$~%^&*..soo sien after work still hv to stay 4 nthg..wasting time..tmr hv to work 12hr..quite sien d but no choise lar,want earn $$..hmm,tonight nd to rest early..if nt tmr sure "betahan"

曾经以为你会在我生命里会永远相伴相随的人

终于明白,开始慢慢的去学不再执着，说忘记,那是自欺欺人,自己在骗自己。其实只不过是想找个借口,来麻木自己的神经,然后告诉自己,我已忘了该忘的,接着告诉别人,我没事,一转身,却眼泪决堤,让泪水出卖了自己。

偶尔的像个任性的孩子,可以长时间的一言不发,独坐一角,安静但脸上却有一种掩盖不住的神情,倦了,累了,便开始有一种想要逃离的冲动。倾诉,是忧伤的另一个出口。我不想让自己变的脆弱。谁是谁的宿命,谁又是谁的永远？

曾经认定的一切,在年华匆匆而去的时候,只能摇头叹息。谁也不会是谁的宿命,谁也不能是谁的永远。时间是世上最温柔的刀子,会磨平所有的梭角。承诺,就像随着风,飘零如雪的花瓣。在阳光里渐渐沉默,却再也回不到从前。

曾经以为在我生命里你会是永远相伴相随的人,现在却在距离中渐离渐远。现在能做的,只有两手空空的,站在某一片纯净的蓝天下,遗忘所有的痛楚和期待,等待尘埃落定。

有些事,在历经沧桑后。开始不着痕迹的更改。曾经,不管握得有多紧,最终都会失去。如手中的沙,慢慢的就泻了。而我们,正在逐渐的老去。爱情,始如耳后的风,轻轻的拂过。最终,我们还是会一无所有。原来,谁也不会是谁的,永远。

有人说,人生就像是一场寂寞的旅行,谁也不能陪你走到最后。 一些情绪在等待里沉默着,我却只能眼睁睁的看着它。突然发现,此刻的自己,无能为力。也许,我一直都无能为力。人生就像一场旅行,不必在乎目的地，在乎的是沿途的风景,以及看风景的心情....

2nd to 1st..tiring

today work 2nd shift..tomorrow is 1st shift..sooo tired..luckly today nt so busy..today my 1st time offloading platform container..erm,nt much different v d GP container..but still "kan jiong" cos is 1st time..just noe tat platform container just can stack 2 high..i miss her again when i free..haiz..i really dunno wat to do..tired tired..hv to sleep,lata 5 nd to wake up..nitezz

today i fall into a abyss

wat i can blame is d weather..i woke up,outside is raining..make my mood down..i miss her miss her so much..
my thinking all is negative..i control myself nt to contact her to avoid any sadness but i still call her..i miss her voice..we dont hv any topic to say..whole day d song tat i listen is sad songs tat fit my mood..after work,mood still nv turn good.then psp play李圣杰song“我懂了她"all d way i listen to tis song until i reach hm..i nv eat today cos no apetite,mayb cos of bad mood..now i un-control again..listen to 许如芸"独角戏"i cant stop my tear now..really cant stop it..i treat her well but she still dump me..i still cant let go of her..in my mind,all cover up by her..wat can i do..i'm dislike playing a relationship..but y i always been played by ppl..true heart in d end break heart..i noe tat she nv played me..she really spend her heart for me..tats y i still love her sooo much..cant let go of her..hopes miracle will happend on me..hopes she would come bek to myside..waiting..waiting..i can giv her wat she want but still depand on her..wanna let me give her happiness or him..my heart is cloudy everyday but still hv to pretend nthg happend..i really tired..i should say is exhausted..

off day after 6 days

i taking leave on 21 n 22 Aug to go bek malacca..nearly 3mth nv go bek..quite missing my family,friend n food thr..d 1st time tat my deploy tt dont hv radio..feel very sien cos no music to listen..but lucky tat i got bring my pc everyday..if nt,sure sleepy n yawn all night d..yday shift is quite free..whole night i just do 40+ container..watching drama,listen music n phone to 慧盈..is been a long time nv chat v her..is quite hapee chatting v her..i wanna remind her to take leave(everyday) when i go bek then we can hanging around together since is been a long time nv hanging around v my mlc fren..around 11 i sleep..3 i been woke up by cat calling me to go to bugis..i join them together,2 couple(onn+juan,cat+li).we go to eat steamboat..quite long time nv eat n chat together..this dinner is enjoying..eat a lots,chatting n drinking beer v onn..but after eatting nthg to do..suddenly my mood turn down..really in mood nw..ad been 7 X 7-49 days(1176 hr)..my life without her..really suffering now but still hv to pretend in front of my fren..i miss her..miss her sooo much..i pretend tat nothing is happend but my heart is fuking pain,wanna cry but cant..wearing mask everyday..hehe hah everyday..but nobody noe me well(my pain)..i feel like to cal her..listen to her voice..but i noe ta if i call her also wont change anythg..i tell myself to slowly slowly let go of her..but d time passing d more i missing her..wat should i do..got any1 can tell me..haiz

sleeping whole day 1030-1930

yday when on my way to work,psp suddenly playing d songs tat belong to us.."Need You Now"
turning my mood down again..i wanna tell her tat i really need you now..ad no mood to listen to others song..mood ad down but still hv to encourage WC to 4get tat guy..is quite ironic since i cant 4get her at all..yday my job is nt much,i finish d 和味浓情drama n a movie,tittle is smthg like gamling(i 4got d tittle),quite nice d..d actor is Death Notes actor K..i buy some Old Chang Kee as my breakfast then online until 1030 i sleep..i woke up at 1600 but i still very tired so i decide to continue my sleep..1930 i wake up,i slept 9 hr..wow,i nv sleep such a long time in my after working day..today my 1st time 3 days 3rd shift..hopes just like yday,free n nt sleepy..

exhausted..

damn tired just 1st night shift..2 more night to go..how to survive..today is d 1st time i eat McD breakfast..hmm feel like normal nt like others ppl saying tat so nice..very tired but still hv to waiting Jye to come..waitng at MCD nearly 1 hr..damn sleepy somemore cant on9 thr..when she come also dont hv more topic to say..just feel sleep like to escape fr thr..around 11 go hm then on9 until 12smthg then betahan ad so sleep sleep..after sleep around 5 hr..wake up still feel very tired..da pao nasi lemak to eat then suddenly call to mind tat 明强 yday saying today toto got special draw..so i think to try some luck..i buy $4 quick pick,gd luck to me~~watching 蒲松龄..i think i hv to take a nap..if nt tonight sure cant tahan d.. but i cant sleep at all..die..