off day after 6 days

i taking leave on 21 n 22 Aug to go bek malacca..nearly 3mth nv go bek..quite missing my family,friend n food thr..d 1st time tat my deploy tt dont hv radio..feel very sien cos no music to listen..but lucky tat i got bring my pc everyday..if nt,sure sleepy n yawn all night d..yday shift is quite free..whole night i just do 40+ container..watching drama,listen music n phone to 慧盈..is been a long time nv chat v her..is quite hapee chatting v her..i wanna remind her to take leave(everyday) when i go bek then we can hanging around together since is been a long time nv hanging around v my mlc fren..around 11 i sleep..3 i been woke up by cat calling me to go to bugis..i join them together,2 couple(onn+juan,cat+li).we go to eat steamboat..quite long time nv eat n chat together..this dinner is enjoying..eat a lots,chatting n drinking beer v onn..but after eatting nthg to do..suddenly my mood turn down..really in mood nw..ad been 7 X 7-49 days(1176 hr)..my life without her..really suffering now but still hv to pretend in front of my fren..i miss her..miss her sooo much..i pretend tat nothing is happend but my heart is fuking pain,wanna cry but cant..wearing mask everyday..hehe hah everyday..but nobody noe me well(my pain)..i feel like to cal her..listen to her voice..but i noe ta if i call her also wont change anythg..i tell myself to slowly slowly let go of her..but d time passing d more i missing her..wat should i do..got any1 can tell me..haiz