灵魂缺口 by 夏日之诗..

灵魂就像一块蛋糕，四四方方的。
你爱过一个人，你就会分出一部分的灵魂给他。
像是蛋糕削去了一小片。
如果他也爱你，那么他就会分出一部分的灵魂给你，
像是给你一片小蛋糕。

这一来一往之间，那一小片蛋糕的施与受，
总是会让你的灵魂恢复原状。
如果你爱上的人并不爱你，
那么你的灵魂，就会出现缺口。
因为已经給出去的灵魂，永远要不回来了。

2000 hours…

Just now 2215,already 2000 hours..She leaving Singapore or should I say leaving me..2000 hours I never meet her,never talk to her (I mean face to face)except in MSN
In this period,I still cant let go of her..i’m suffering..I miss her soo much but I cant find her,cant disturd her new life at Kuching..But sometimes I failed,I still got contact with her sometimes..Once contact her,my topic sure is rounding on me and her(our relationship)Everytimes makes her unhappy..So I decide not to contact her,although I really miss her..Just can say that I’m torturing myself..Think wanna cry but I just cant cry..tears never come out..maybe this kind of pain is in the highest level..Everydays listen to The Glorious Death(my song of loneliness).feel that how come my life so terrible,I don’t have any bosom friend,been dumped by my love 1..
How long can I recover from this?? 1 year?? 2 year?? I really dunno how long it takes to,just can say,not so easy to..

爱~~

爱，也许就在一瞬间，浓缩在你干涸的心灵深处，殊不知，爱得越深，距离已在冥冥中肆意繁殖当你透视这迷离的隔阂时，你蓦然回首，此刻，你心中只遗存着爱的温度。即使。。。。你的那一半，带着你的心飞到大洋彼岸，离别是漫长的等待，是无言的坚守。而你只有面朝大海，思念蔓延。距离不一定产生美，但也阻隔不了彼此的牵挂与守候。等吧，既然选择了爱，就要义无反顾，虽然它爱一个人很累;想一个人很苦;等一个人很傻;忘一个人很难. 无尽的叹息 ，无奈的唏嘘。当你闭上眼熟悉的背影在夜色下慢慢退去一个人喧闹中迷失了当你睁开眼安静的等待从舞台上悄悄离开一句话记忆里沉下去。没有永远的永远，却有永恒的永远. .

香烟..酒..

香烟和酒已经成为了我的重要伴侣了..
做工时我不能没有香烟..没了它,寂寞的我会很难挨..每点燃一根烟就很像点燃了我寂寞的心,每吐出一口烟就很像是说出自己的无奈和失败..现在的我每至少两天要一包..
放工时或在家时我不能没有酒,没了它就算是夜深了都难以入眠..酒精能够让我麻醉自我(不要想太多),能够帮我入眠..

Bakerzin n Step Up 3D in my offday..

Just now dinner with Huey..Its been more than half year we never meet each other..Still remember that last time we meet is before CNY,i bring her to meet her..Today we meet again,i'm single(being dumped again)
The 1st time i enter Bakerzin since i'm thinking to go for a long time..The stuff is nice especially the cakes and ice-cream(desserts)..We at there nearly 2 hour,having our dinner and chatting..After that we planning to watch movie..Just get to know that Yishun GV cinema is close for renovation,no choise we go to AMK Hub..AMK Hub dont have much choices of movie..After that we choose Step Up 3D..
Step Up 3D is nice..Enjoying the 3D sensation watching their dance,feels great..

The Glorious Death

Todays song is The Glorious Death by Fiona Fung in the movie 千机变..
Yesterday heard it from a video 我的心一直为你守候..I dunno is it really counted as a song,because is just music plus her “harrr wooo arrr” voice.After I heard it,my mood feel sediment,in my mind is blank without any feeling(happy,joyful or even down or sad)..just absence of mind发呆(It can be few hours)maybe can say as lonely.. I call it as my song of loneliness(寂寞之歌)
I dunno,maybe is better than feeling down or cry everyday..maybe just maybe..

旧伤..回忆~~

昨晚做工时不小心撞到左边的漆盖..又勾起了我和她的回忆..
去年圣诞节时弄到的漆盖..还记得那时在east coast的圣诞bbq会上,她追着我,我一直跑,没看到眼前的石椅就撞了上去..当时我痛到躺在地上..左脚有两个瘀清,一个在大腿一个在漆盖..还记得她那时心痛的看着我臭骂我为什么要跑这么快又没看好.. 现在漆盖酸酸痛痛的..就像我的心情..再想起那时候的我们..多么的要好多么的开心..现在却..
爱让我们更熟悉更了解对方,也却让我们变成陌生人..

Malacca + Ing

Last sat i when bek Malacca..already been 3 month never go back..like usual,when bek just find Phoebe and Sen..Saturday night we when Riverbank Music Cafe,drink beer chatting..that night i 60% drunk,losing control again..tears non-stop splashing out from my eyes..yesterday night we when GogoKTV..at there i'm thinking her again n again..still remember that last time we singk at there..now no more chance..think want to get drunk but never drunk..after reach home i'm suffering..heart is pain..

乾姐..回忆..

I very happy that contact back my high school time 乾姐..巧萍..she add me in facebook last sunday..she send a message to me in facebook..call me 弟..i very happy that she still remember me,this 乾弟弟 since after form 5 we just meet once in Pure Bar(i think more than 2 years ago)
She just remind me my high school life..when in my high school time she "collect" me as her 乾弟弟(maybe she think i always been bully)..she treat me quite nice..take care of me when i kena bully..if i kena bully she sure scold them who bully me..because when high school time i'm small and thin(right now also didnt have much different lar just tall a bit)..thats why i'll always be the target to bully..they bully me but i didnt hate them because they not really bully me lar（never hit me)..i'm quite happy that "bully" by them..just always order me to do things,always "chop slam" me(WWF very famous that time)
Already 7 years after school..all things change..a lot of friends in an relationship..some of them get married(already build their family)..but me still the same..

羡慕..

我总是很羡慕别人成双成对,很恩爱很甜蜜很开心..
为何我却不能够..我对她我觉得已经是很很很好了（可能她还觉得不够吧）为什么我就是可以那么的寂寞,那么的想她,那么的可悲..心痛到不能形容..在爱情世界里我是个爱了,付出了,到最后还是被伤害了的爱情傻瓜..

雪候鸟...

随候鸟南飞风一刀一刀地吹

你刺痛我心扉我为你滴血

你遗弃的世界我等你要回

我不想南飞泪一滴一滴地坠

我空虚的双臂你让我包围

我有过的一切你给的最美

我又回头去飞去追

任往事一幕一幕催我落泪

我不信你忘却我不要我单飞

没有你逃到哪里心都是死灰

我又回头去追去醉

就算我追到最后只剩冰雪

天都为我伤悲冷的爱快枯萎

任漫天风雪覆盖我的心碎

我落淚 情緒零碎

地上 斷了翅的蝶
霧散之後的 滿月
原來愛 跟心碎
都可以很 細節

聽夜風繞過 幾條街
秋天瘦了滿地 的落葉
於是又一整夜
感性的句子 都枯萎 凋謝

＊我不想再寫 隨手撕下這一頁(這一頁)
原來詩跟離別 可以沒有結尾(沒有結尾)
憔悴後悔等等 這些
於是我 把詩摺疊
郵寄出感覺 夾一束白玫瑰
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網
妳將愛退回

我不落淚 忍住感覺
分手在起風 這個季節
哭久了會累 也只是別人的以為
冷的咖啡 我清醒著 一再續杯

我落淚 情緒零碎
妳的世界 一幕幕紛飛
門外的薔薇 帶刺傷人的很直接
過去被翻閱 結局滿天的 風雪

42小时后..安全感..

我做了这么多还是给不到她所要的安全感..给了她我的全部我看起来还是不安全..我真的那么像那些花心大萝卜吗..真失败..相隔了42天,我们又在msn见面了..看到了她还是以前那样（应该说比以前快乐了）,看到她手上已经没戴了我送她的戒指,我的心很痛很痛..她之前说过会把它一直戴着的可是现在却把它放在房间..我真的那么差吗..真的很恨恨失败..泪又在失控的涌出来了..为什么为什么我那么的爱他换来的却是一身的痛尤其是心痛..心痛的不会形容..还是要笑着对她..

All the best to Ying..

after work i go Chinatown to meet Han couple..due to Ying going to New Zealand next month so we just hanging around to have dinner together..
8 of us(Han,Choy Ye,Yen Ching,Shirley,Ying,Fei,Jenifer and myself) is quite boring since i'm not so close with them except Han and Yen Ching..but still ok because we got hanging around before,still got some topic to talk with..Yen Ching stomach still not so big but she become more fatter..she say after scanning,is a boy..the boy will born end of this year(doctor say is 22 December)

失眠夜 15/08/10

只睡1小时然后搭cab去做工..累累累死了..还好今天的job不会很赶,睡了大概40分钟..不过今天做了差不多80多container..没带电脑去因为放工后要出去,只能听歌..电台播放着红色向日葵..让我想起了她..平时去唱歌时大多数她都会点唱这首歌..想起她唱歌时的招牌动作..去牛车水,经过我们新年倒数时吃饭的店,经过那些街,那间k-box..又在一次的想起了她..

戒不掉..

黑夜将城市笼罩
想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱你的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙
什么已无可救药
没有你会死掉
我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进你的圈套
现在知道却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对你的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

G7

Just now having dinner at G7,Geylang..eating 田鸡粥 with Li Li couple,Li Kian couple and Jun,6 of us..due to Li Kian birthday but we nv celebrate,just buy a present for her,then she treat us this meal..we buy perfume for her..
Tomorrow work 1st shift but i still insomnia..what i can comform is tomorrow sure "stim stim"..hopes drink some alcohol can help me in sleep and not think too much..

面具人..

每天戴着面具做人..笑,也不是发自内心的..惟有悲伤是内心发出的..
可怜的是我觉得我没什么朋友(可以谈心的)..有时想找个人谈谈都找不到人..这两个月都没找人倾诉,都是自己一个人躲在深夜里过,自己哭自己醉..我不喜欢让人知道我的事(我的悲伤)..我觉得我是带快乐给大家而不是悲伤..也不想别人同情,让人觉得我可怜,让人觉得烦(像WS那样)..
可能跟我是做朋友会好过作情人吧..我应该是比较适合一个人吧..天蝎座的看起来都比较冷酷..

回到过去..

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影
失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
失去平衡 慢慢下沉
你的身影
又回到过去

On Course day..

today wake up i'm feel headache..maybe night i drink too much..wake up listen to 我走以后 by 张靓颖..really in feel all days..yesterday just sleep around 3 hour,when on course i "fishing" all the way..really sleepy..tomorrow still 1st shift,good is because i can attend ying farewell dinner..bad is later around 10 something i goona go having dinner at Kallang with 2 couple(Li Li couple and Li Kian couple) due to Li Kian birthday..i dont think tonight i can sleep well..i really have to take a nap..if not my battery will flat..

我走以后..

每晚的梦都会重复
重复一段路
我们曾走的好辛苦

你感谢我付出
更感谢我退出
说她更需要照顾

听说你比从前幸福
我只有满足
还能有怎样的企图

当初你迷了路
选择我的脚步
是不是有些唐突

喧闹的人群中
陌生的面孔匆匆略过
感觉每张脸都是你的轮廓
黎明破晓后
多想再一次亲吻你刘海遮住的额头
安慰我
我走以后
你现在的生活
会不会也偶尔想起我
那所谓的以后还是朋友
如何去做
你曾经说我走以后
希望还有联络
能够聆听彼此的苦乐
说实在的
我已不能理智对待了

喧闹的人群中
陌生的面孔匆匆略过
感觉每张脸都是你的轮廓
黎明破晓后
多想再一次亲吻你刘海遮住的额头
安慰我
我走以后
你现在的生活
会不会也偶尔想起我
那所谓的以后还是朋友
如何去做
你曾经说我走以后
希望还有联络
能够聆听彼此的苦乐
说实在的
我已不能理智对待了

慢慢学会了沉默
想把你影子摆脱
或许就不难过
夜晚没了你在我身边拥抱着
习惯了
我走以后
你现在的生活
会不会也偶尔想起我
那所谓的以后还是朋友
如何去做
你曾经说我走以后
希望还有联络
能够聆听彼此的苦乐
说实在的
我已不能理智对待了

说实在的
我已不能理智对待了

我的等待有盡頭嗎..

愛 熟悉的旋律卻默默的消失在虛幻妳的背影卻是觸不到...
想起妳的身影天空不再蔚藍而是孤獨的顏色
聽海哭的浪花光芒劃破我的手卻不曾察覺鮮血由指尖滴下衣服染成鮮紅心
不曾躺血唯一的留戀卻是妳而回憶令我麻木我累趴在愛情血泊中永遠有個極限那我的等待有盡頭嗎?
我的天使 離我而去 妳過的好嗎?

A.F.H.J.K

Now A.F.J.K is long longer because we got a new member..Chiao Han..Anson,Jai Fang,Chiao Han,Jing and Kimmy..Now is A.F.H.J.K
We when to Farrer Park City Square just now..Is very nice that gather with old friends..They very good that always choose my off day as a gathering day,to suite my time..i love them all..
R turnoff but never rest more..10 something wake up cant sleep back..all day like gong dai gong dai..thinking her..haiz..been poisoning like drug..

有人為你偷偷在哭..

多少次想對你大聲說出有人為你偷偷在哭..
為了他再多苦你都忍住我的溫柔你不在乎..
你的喜悲全交給我 我的煎熬卻不能說..
最近的幸福最遙遠的路誰的錯..
i love this song..by 苏永康

drowning..

In mood again..afternoon i received a message that she send to me..saying something like she still miss me..what can i do..i done all the thing that i can..but still she leaving me..as what i say before,the decision is on her..i'm still waiting for her..if she comes back i really hapee(will it happend??hopes that miracle will drop on me),if she still decide to stay there i dunno what else i can do(go sarawak find her??dont so stupid if she still dont want to come back u will be a fuking idiot)..drowning..cos of love(her)

~~R~~

Tomorrow is my R turnoff..if got turnout i can earn around $100 tomorrow..but still ok that turnoff..really tired,lower back pain..need to rest more and more..nows a day i really sleep more..
Dunno why,after 2nd shift i have no apetite to eat..just drink then enough..when night i must drink but i can never eat..i just finish 1 botol Black Label,after a week..i just left $200 to spend until 25 Aug..tomorrow will buy a botol,left $150 till 25 Aug..i can never eat but i cant never drink..maybe i become a alcoholic already..
Maybe tomorrow think wanna go to watch movie myself..Salt or Airbender??hm..see how lar..maybe never watch in the end..

明明知道...

明明知道这样的等待是没有意义，结果还是陷入了这场没有结局的游戏..
明明知道没有结局，还是等待着你的消息，...
我该怎么把你忘记？又该怎么找回我自己？？

想你一次，心痛一次..

想你一次，心痛一次~什么时候才能不再想你，什么时候才能把你忘记。我时常冥思苦想，把你忘记了，我是不是就不会再难过？把你忘记了，我是不是就会很开心？把你忘记了，是不是生活就会好一些？把你忘记了，是不是就可以过上新的生活？我该怎么把你忘记？本想忘记你的，但你的身影总是在我心里徘徊而至，真不知是你不肯离去，还是我不肯忘记。心痛是你留给我的唯一想你的感觉很苦，因为知道那是没有归期的，想你的感觉很无奈，明知道没有结果可言，但还是想，还是没有时间概念的想，没有地点区分的想，只要脑子里有一刻空闲就是那么强烈的想你。　夜不能寐，茶不思，饭不想。坐立不安，好像都不足以代表我现在的心情。傻笑一下安慰自己。思念你的感觉真的很美，它让我充实，让我满足~思念你的感觉真的很苦，它让我难过，让我孤独，让我失落，让我想放弃。思念你的感觉真的很无奈，它让我迷失自己，它让我没有方向，它让我不知道归期，它让我对明天止步。最重要的是，思念你的感觉让我心痛。心痛的感觉就像少了什么，酸酸的，仿佛缺了灵魂。一种说不出来，却又明明白白的感受到

愛在記憶中找你

我對你　這一生　哪個可比
我與你　差一些　永遠一起
邂逅時間場地　似連場好戲
要自何頁說起

愛太重　深呼吸　欠缺空氣
愛太美　輕輕的　卻載不起
愛情來到時候　似明媚天氣
它走了　突然驟變雪落雨飛

如果可以恨你　全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想放下你　還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離

你太遠　該怎麼　說對不起
你太近　一轉身　卻已高飛
快樂也許太短　似場流星雨
一眨眼　就如幻愛怕又記起

如果可以恨你　全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非想放下你　還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離

如果可以恨你　全力痛恨你
連遇上亦要躲避
無非要放下你　還是掛念你
誰又會及我傷悲
前事最怕有人提起
就算怎麼伸盡手臂
我們亦有一些距離

我情愿我狠心憎你
我還在記憶中找你

turn..turn

My mood turn while the weather turns..when waiting bus to work,the weather is hot but when i reach mrt,the weather turns cloudy..damn dark..plus i listen to the song 我以为 by 李圣杰 made my mood turns moody again..moody all days..why cant i just let go..it make me suffering everydays..how come i so useless..other people are so enjoying in their relationship,why i always been hurting again and agian in my realtionship..maybe i live to be lonely..

again..and again..

Yesterday nearly 3a.m still working night shift..suddenly my mood comes again..thinking her again..down..no mood to listen to those engliish hits..i open up 我以为-李圣杰..tear in my eyepit,but i stop it from droping out..i have told myself before that not to cry..but really in mood..no heart to do anything just think wanna drink my black label but i cant..because i still working night shift..drowning..

1st time be a waiter..

Yesterday doing night shift..quite a busy+ing night..can say per day average doing around 70 container..just 2 month,my lower back always feel pain..jia lat lor,need to find a solution..
After work i direct go JB,to be a waiter,help my dear cousin vegetarian shop due to not enought people plus today is lunar calender 1st july(ghost month)..this is the 1st time i'm be a waiter..start from 1000 to 1500..the feeling is ok(maybe is the 1st time)..for me i dont think i will be a waiter in future since i dislike the job,if my own shop is different lar..today i just thinking that i working at my own shop..all the thing i want do well or perfect..when working i feel tired but didnt feel sleepy at all..but when its end(on the way to JB custom)i sleep until unconscious..because i work night shift,never sleep direct go JB help my dear cousin..

爱上你...

爱上你......你的名字在我心里就像是纹身刻在肌肤上.......
无法磨灭......像是烙印.......却不是烙印........
只记得你......永远都只想到你~~我爱你......

enjoying night^^

yesterday we have been going to St James Power Station clubbing..this is the 1st time i'm going there..the enviroment there is nice,is a big pub,the base and music is damn nice..but the people is too many there,maybe because of long weekend,NDP public holiday at monday..when we reach,the queue id damn long but we used another way avoid the queue..all the locker is full inside,dont even think about the table..in side is crowded,all people is squeezing..but its really a nice place for clubbing..
Mei Ka was the focus of the night because got a guy wanna know her..then buy a water for her..hmm,pretty girl for sure got a lot of guy wanna know..
Mei Ka,Xiao,Wai Sin,Lan couple,Lian,Jun,Cai Ling,Avril and Me..All of us are enjoying the night..

全世界都停了电..

连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭
为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念 却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了电 全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间 有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈 像一个句点


连你都会残忍隔绝
我的心能要谁了解
眼中烛光摇晃着熄灭
为何把我推向边缘
被砸坏了的一切
卡住了我让我无法往前

囚禁在距离笑声最远的房间
单独隔离 寂寞地盘旋

全世界都停了电 全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面 被贴上黑夜
我呐喊思念 却没人听见
绝望到极点剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了电 全世界白雪满天
才发觉在我心间 有回忆碎片
一作梦翻身 就刺痛流血
我卷着身体缩成一个圈 像一个句点

Tiring days..

Yesterday 2nd shift today 1st shift..just sleep 3 an a half hour..when on my way to work i feel uncomfortable,whole body no energy and numb..i think maybe because of yesterday never eat dinner and not enough sleep..when reach PSA i ok already..
Today just deploy 55 tt..i at tt 538 at Y30..i thought is a free day cause not much vessel..my tt park at X30..luckly not a FCL block..but this whole 1st shift i do around 90 container..knn,fuking busy,all the way got job..just rest when MB1..my lower back is pain..really need to massage already..
Around 6 i take a nap,just sleep around 15 minutes,i been woke up by cat..he want me go to having dinner when him and lili..i decline cause i already eat a MCD nugget set before i nap..kns he all the way disturb me until i say yes..walan,wanna rest more also cannot..We having at Seoul Garden..long time never eat already..quite enjoying but still tiring..
When reach home i visit toilet 3 times..dunno what my stomache going on..today really need to sleep early..can say working everydays..fuking tiring since the journey to work is far..tomorrow w shift turnout as 1st shift..hmm,mayb tomorrow night can join MK them clubbing..see how lar..
Good Luck to myself,hopes tomorrow not so busy..

Parking..

today is the 1st time i park tt..although i gantry damn far,from block T to block Y..again,a busy day..why cant i get a free day..
1450 hours..2 months already..still drowning..missing her soo much..

分手了真的不能再做回朋友..

今天很累..可能是工作,也可能是她的关系..
下午时收到她的信息说我们似乎连做回朋友的缘分也没有了..心突然没了知觉..我也没什么很大的反应..可能我们做回朋友,就像以前那样,对我们都好..我努力的告诉自己,我们做回朋友肯定会比情人来的好..可是把她当回朋友我却做不到..时时刻刻都想着她,每晚都为了她而醉..为什么她能说放就放,我想放却怎么都放不下..
分手了不能做回朋友..因为分手后我都不能把曾经是另一半的她当成朋友..那么我不会再去爱了..
爱-开心过,甜蜜过,但是到头来还是心痛,伤心..用尽全心全意换来的是伤痕磊磊..只想和我的爱人开心的过每一天,那么简单都不愿意让我去实行..开心过,甜蜜过,伤心了,心痛了,累了,不敢再爱了..

如果这就是爱情..

你做了选择 对的错的
我只能承认 心是痛的
怀疑你舍得 我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了 何必再强忍
我没有选择 我不再完整
...原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
你只能默认 我要被割舍
眼看着 你走了
如果这不是结局 如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信 你就是唯一
如果你听到这里 如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情 我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情 本来就不公平
你不需要讲理 我可以离去
如果我成全了你 如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清 是我证明 我爱你
灰色的天空 无法猜透
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
什么都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人 原来不是我
我不要你走 我不想放手
却又不能够奢求 同情的温柔
你可以自由 我愿意承受
把昨天 留给我
....

again..

drunk now..i just want to be a normal live with u..y this looks like a simple thing just wouldnt happend to me..

Inception..nice!!

Today my off day..i received a message from Jing saying that "today will meet up at yishun,dont tell me that u already forget it"..i really forget is today,i thought is thurday..i and a friend planning to watch movie tonight,it will crush..so i ask my friend join A.F.J.K ,we having dinner together after that i and my friend watch "Inception" on 2150..
We having "Thai Express" as our dinner..I order a chicken rice..the chicken is cook by yellow ginger,and chillies..its super i eat this before,but i still order this dish to let them try the Hot and Spycy..
After that i and my friend rush for the 2150 "Inception"
"Inception" story about dreams..they can create a dream then let people in..then to find something in their dream or change people mind set in the dream..its nice..
When my 1st shift,i'm planning to watch Street Dance,The Sorcerer Aprpentice or the new movie in the theater,The Last Airbender..hmm,its a movies week..

1349 hr..life without her..

just woke up,today i slep quite long maybe because of the weather(rainny day)..tonight my last night,tomorrow off..really need to rest well..
1349 hr been tru..i still missing her sooo much,everyday thinking of her..
in this hour i have finish 1 red wine,3 whiskey(Black Label) and some Q,Kampai and Long Island..i think i become a alcoholic..when come to night i need alcohol..to help me made my mind blurr,not to thinking so much..and the most important is to helping me to get in sleep..need alcohol to prevent my insomnia..
what else i can do to own her back..i soo suffering..

FCL night again..

but this night big different with 30 Aug night..not much shifting to do..no hurry..but today workthrough,earn more^^
around 0530 storm is start..inside the cabin still can heard the sound of wind blowing..when finish work the rain still havent stop..then i took 2nd bus to go out canteen..i miss the only bus to West Coast at 0745..no choise,so i took the Haw Paw Villa bus then took bus 175..waiting the bus until leg is tired..if not mistaken,i spend 20-25 minutes waiting in the bus stop..
1 more night to go..then is my off..really tired..off day planning to go to watch movie..maybe Inception,Street Dance or The Sorcerer's Aprentice..